“Well it’s day 2 and I wish I could say I was feeling a lot better but I’m not really. Just a little maybe. I cried for the first time in a long time. The guys here are really helping me keep my spirits up. Some of the guys that have been here a while say that this program has really helped them. I didn’t sleep much last night. Maybe 45 minutes. On the positive, 48 hours is the longest I’ve been clean and sober in 3 years. A therapist named Byron did a group with us about having a purpose in life. I couldn’t really pay attention because my mind is racing. But Byron talked to me after group because he could tell I’m struggling. I appreciated that because I could tell he cares. I told him I don’t have a purpose in life and he said yes I do that my purpose for right now it just to get clean. He’s pretty cool. I don’t think my family wants to hear from me which sucks. But I hurt them pretty bad. I stole from them to get money for dope and booze and I don’t know if I can ever forgive myself. They took us on an airboat alligator tour in the Everglades today and then we did a group. I felt like crap but it was cool because I had never seen an alligator up close. I thought I was gonna puke on that airboat because the damn things are fast and I’m still withdrawing from cocaine and whiskey so I was a little queezy if ya know what I mean. Somehow I managed to have fun. Cravings today aren’t as bad as I thought they would be. But dammit I just want to be happy. All I ever wanted was just to be happy. They call this place The Good Life and I wouldn’t say I’m living the good life just yet but I’m gonna try and get there.”
Jax’s journey describes the process of getting clean and sober in early recovery. To learn more about treatment and begin your own recovery, call The Good Life Treatment Center today at 866.271.7341. If you need sober living and family therapy options, then you’ve come to the right place! Reach out today.